I’ve come to realize that I am pretty much just an introverted nerd at school (and at home)…. Because I don’t have much friends, don’t socialize much, and get all (or at least more than others) my schoolwork done and handed-in. Like I know its “great” that I get my work done and things, but I feel offended when others say the word “nerd” to some people… their tone of voice makes it seem like being a nerd is just “uncool” or really bad. Sure, its uncool in some ways, but I can be cool in my closest friends’ opinions and I have my own definition of “cool”. Lulz.
Anyway, I also like reading books from the library and small talking with teachers. I usually like being in complete solitude and at times I feel irritated of people always talking (especially when the library is suppose to be quiet but then the obnoxious students get in later) when I walk down the hallways. I don’t mind people talking… in fact, I love listening to people’s conversations when I’m in class. I am so quiet that I just sit at my desk and concentrate on my work while listening to others at the same time. If I hear anyone whispering about something, I listen-in and sometimes I suspect its about me or someone I know. Some things that I hear are interesting and I laugh if someone says something funny and everyone else laughs. Heck, I am such a nerd that I sometimes be socially awkward (nervous, anxious, etc.). Most of the time though, I am willing to talk, etc.
When it comes to socializing with others.. I am picky and know the different “types” of people. XD There are nice popular kids (who are honest and could be fun to be with if I were to befriend) and then there are the “nice” ones who are bad influence, etc. Then there are really bad kids who can be bullies and backstabbers (only back in elementary I’ve seen that kind… in fact I was a bullied victim). All I really need is one best friend hanging around with me (which I haven’t had for the past 2 or 3 years or whatever).
Thus why I am picky about people ( I don’t want superficial or not-so-close friendships)… and I am a nerd also because of my almost-obsessive interest in anime & manga, crushes on anime guys, enjoys social isolation on occasions, glasses, thin dark hair, chubbiness, etc. I am on the computer over 9 hours a non-school-day and I sometimes get bored of the computer, then I go into my room to watch tv, listen to music, etc. Total “nerd” hobbies. Hahahaha. Anyway, I better get back to working on my Media Arts culminating project. :3
